I hate my life right now.
Yea Friday was great but I almost wish it didn't happen cuz it just got my damn hopes up. I haven't seen that guy since he paused in the hallway Friday night. What the fuck's the point? It's so complicated, he's my friend! If I fuck this up it'll ruin our friendship!
I went to tonight's Hillel meeting at 7(after not seeing him at dinner...again!!). I was one of 3 people there because someone posted the wrong time in the shared folder. Then I got an e-mail from one of my friends pleading with me to come to the meeting at 8. She said I had to come cuz I was her only friend in Hillel, etc. I ended up going and was the 5th wheel, no one talks to me. I don't know why I even bother trying to be social sometimes.
On the way back to my room I ran into Cam and my crying roomate. Apparently some jackass from across Wesley shot a bebe through our window. THROUGH OUR FUCKING WINDOW!!! She thought it was a bullet and freaked. We spent a good hour at campus safety filing reports (I also had to file about my vandalized signs). Elaine and everyone was talking about the community service project where you go to Poland and fix up a Jewish cemetery. They wanted to know why I, being Jewish, wasn't going. Then they talked about spring break plans with each other and I was invisible. Campus safety drove us back to Wesley and I ran off to Jesse and Ariel's room to escape. Cam was hugging Elaine and his friend (I'm really bad with names) was talking to her, no one noticed I left or said a word to me. Maybe next time a stray bebe goes through the window I'll try to get in its proximity...
I'm so damn sick of being ignored.
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