stolen from loser_behind

Bold the ones that apply to you

01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex on the lips.
02. I see/have seen a therapist.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness.
05. I have gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
08. I love to write.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I'm probably emotionally scarred.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years
14. I love designer handbags.
15. I've had a concussion before.
16. I'm not good with confrontation.
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I've tried writing poetry before
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I'm not a fan of rap.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get very attached.
27. I am bisexual/bicurious.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I was into Hot Wheels as a child.
30. I dress how I feel that day
31. My room is painted a color other than white.
32. I cry very easily.
33. I'm always early.
34. I barely ever study for tests
35. My birthday is my favorite holiday.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser
37. I am a morning person.
38. I wish I was smarter.
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I think that its perfectly ok to be gay.
41. No one person really knows me.
42. I don't have many bad hair days
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I am passionate about my interests.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm a hopeless romantic.
47. I feel empty sometimes.
48. I am/was most likely clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am no longer depressed.
50. I am very outgoing.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday
52. I can be very insecure
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love the color yellow.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I have absolutely no self-confidence.
60. I've contemplated suicide.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love Darren Hayes.
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I've had a crush on a teacher before.
68. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction
71. I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years.
73. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I wear contacts
79. I hate it when people say they hate Bush because he is a moron.
80. I hate Bush, but I have reasons to justify it.
81. I don't take criticism well.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. Chris Carrabba is one of the sexiest men alive.
84. So is Conor from Bright Eyes.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I'm probably going to have premarital sex.
91. I don't like my nose.
92. I am very religious.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. I am ridiculously indecisive.
95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife.
96. I love music.
97. I'm in love.
98. I have problems letting go of people.
99. Jesse Lacey writes some of the most amazing lyrics ever.
100. I don't really like ice cream.

what a way to wake up...

Yea...love how LiveJournal just deleted my entire last entry...

Last night was supposed to be my post-Halloween party (aka my "let's eat all the leftover candy my mom gave me" party). The only one who showed up was my boyfriend. It was cool though, we watched TV and ate a bunch of candy (we also cuddled and kissed and talked- but that goes without saying). We finally went to bed at around 3am and since we were alone, we slept in the same bed. This time we left the bed where it was and didn't put it on the floor (my boyfriend even constructed a little "safety cusion" in case one of us fell). It was really nice, as always.

While we were watching TV I got up to play on my computer and ended up updating my LJ (I can only take SO much anime...). He saw me update and wanted to read my journal. He read all the entries about him, as well as the one from last night/this morning where I bolded that I had contemplated suicide. He was concerned and told me he would always love me no matter what. He also told me that next time I felt depressed I should talk to him. He then told me some....darker aspects of himself. I think I love him even more now. I couldn't have picked a better boyfriend if I had set out to. I love that we're still good friends (he told me last night I'm his best friend and he's downloading AIM just so he can talk to me :) ).

We talked for another hour or two in bed then went to sleep. In the morning we wanted to sleep late, my roomate was gone for the night. We were hugging and kissing and stuff when my roomate came back into the room! She is very religious and anti-premarital sex so I don't want her to know I have a boyfriend that sleeps over regularly. She got some stuff and left so we resumed...then she came back! My boyfriend jumped under the blanket like he had before and I was like "shh..act like a blanket!" She left and we really got into it again...when she came back a third time!!! This time she started doing hw and my poor boyfriend was stuck under the blankets for a half hour! She saw I was awake and started telling me how she lost her computer mouse. I was like "that sucks, you should go to the ra RIGHT NOW and tell her." That damn thing was in her backpack.

I thought of a plan. I left and went to Ariel and Jessie's room in search of Jessie and a distraction, instead I found Ariel and Doug on Ariel's bed! I quickly explained the situation and asked of they'd help. They agreed (I really have the best friends, although I'm starting to think we're all a little too close). I went back into my room and told Elaine I had run into Ariel on my way back from the bathroom and she wanted to talk to her. I said her boyfriend was over and she wanted to show him off because he was never around (which was a blatant lie). Elaine bought it and went to Ariel's room, meanwhile I went over to the boyfriend-shaped lump in my bed and told it to run. When I came back from the bathroom (for real this time) my roomate was still in Ariel's room (poor Ariel...) and my boyfriend was in my room, now fully dressed (he was wearing pajamas before). Apparently Elaine had run into him in the hall and was just like "Hi! You just missed Rachael." She bought it, she actually thought he was coming from Seaton instead of the bathroom! I couldn't belive it. We pulled it off! We actually pulled it off!!! My boyfriend and I went to lunch and my roomate was none the wiser. I find this hysterical, sometimes I wonder how she managed to make it to Albion...